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| [After great pain, a formal feeling comes-]
After great pain, a formal feeling comes-
The Nerves sit ceremonious like Tombs-
The stiff Heart questions was it He, that bore,
And yesterday, or Centuries before?
The Feet, mechanical, go round-
Of Ground, or Air, or Ought-
A Wooden way
Regardless grown,
A Quartz contentment, like a stone-
This is the hour of Lead-
Remembered, if outlived,
As Freezing Persons recollect the Snow-
First- Chill- then Stupor- then the letting go-
Emily Dickinson
.. So I'm gonna be blunt because yeah... I really like this poem.. cuz
it portrays pretty much exactly how I feel right now... Ani died last
week... how do I feel? I feel like Ani just died.. and I have to
greive... again...
But yeah don't let that get you down... I just really liked that poem.. schools almost over! for the semester.. yay!
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| Ok so my hiatus from facebook has no good excuse, but I'm back. School started on tuesday, I've been crying ever since. This semesters schedule include the ever so exciting statistics, Christian Doctrine in Kuypers attempt to POUND the reformed life into me, two social work classes that will be a lot of FREKAING work but i"m excited about them just the same, oh and choir.... yup go ahead picture it Bec in a choir robe. Oh and intro to lit... phhhhhahahah. I'm moving into a house in Rockford with Sara on saterday... this week of commuting from home has been quite frankly a bitch! OH and everybodies getting married or got married this summer! People came back married who I didn't thing were dating at the end of last year. OH my sisters married... Mrs. Heather Koerssen, doesn't that sound weird? So yeah if anybody wants to rescue me from becoming a hick in rockford, please do so :) anytime :) | | |
| So I´m in the DR! heheheh it´s like 89 degree´s and wonderful and humid. It´s sooo good to get away from everything, the house, Dad´s cancer, everything! We worked for the first day at cure hospital today it went very well. I absolutuly love it here, and I can´t completley grasp the fact that I´m here. Traveling went well, everything went well actually, except for a gushing nosebleed that freaked out the poor spanish bellboy... oh and if you ever have a nosebleed put a coin on your forehead and tilt it back, works like a charm! I have seen the infamous Alejandro.. the jerk told all of the guys helping us down here to call be Becca or Becky.. NR! even before I walked into the Cure Hospital this dominican guy named carlos comes up to me and is like ¨Rebeca! you know Alex! he told me to call you Becca!¨ I gave alex a hug then I smacked him deservedly so! If any of you see my parent´s or brother or sister can you tell them I´m fine and good and wonderful since I probably won´t be able to call them for the rest of my trip... | | |
| This speaks for itself
Cancer
by My Chemical Romance
turn away
if you get me a drink of water
cuz my lips are chapped and faded
call my aunt marie
help her gather all my things
and bury me in all my favorite colors
my sisters and my brothers
still i will not kiss you
cuz the hardets part of this is leaving you
now turn away
cuz i'm awful just to see
cuz all my hair's abandoned all my body
all my agony
know that i will never marry
baby i'm just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to go
it just ain't living
and i just hope you know
that if you say
good bye today
i'd ask you to be true
cuz the hardest part of this
is leaving you
cuz the hardest part of this
is leaving you
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| and this is for kim!!! hehehe
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